Love can make you crazy...especially if you kinda are. You want to believe in what you think youve found. But when its the opposite of what u believed..thats confusing. U keep hearing the opposite. And you kinda deserve it for holding on. Stuff never encountered. Messes you up..but you continue to allow it. When youve thought youve fought the mental challenges already. Its never ending. Someone helped you when you were a disaster. Lesson on never stop learning and taking care of you. Extraordinary circumstances. Crazy stuff. The background and traumas. Medical information important stuff disappears. It never happened. That person has to be ill as well. When someone lies to doctors. Its so odd. Nothing seems to help them. Pretty dumb..i needed help too thought i could. Its always on your time. When you have hurt enough. Then you will. So weird someone seemingly so hurt would go to so many lengths to vindicate themselves. Including intimidation. Would lie so much to make the other person responsible. Verbal attacks from almost strangers. And personal insults that mocked their mental health. Alot of unexpected events. You teach people how to treat you. So why am I complaining? Im not an authority on anything...who am I? Live by the 12 steps a AA. Well I cant find anything except forgive and move on. In the end they mock you for believing. And continue to deceive others. Easy when you keep everyone at a distance. All goes to lessons learned and dont make that mistake again dummy. It just keeps getting rubbed in. And no one knows these traumas were invented. Never had it happen so crazy. They want help..but doctors notes prove deception. Sometimes you are so freakin dumb you cant believe it. U cant fathom whats the truth. Your life turns into a dateline. Reason ...you live learn forgive and move on. The mockery is ongoing...no remorse. So against all better judgement...you defend your name take back your life. Make the truth common knowledge. If someone else who has mental issues encounters this..prolly wont be good. Take your beating for not defending youself. Stupidy. Make it so the actual facts..not emotions come out. I always blamed the spouse on datelines cons. Lol. Yep im a bigger dumbass than I knew..face it build myself stronger. I know its wrong and could hinder me...but i cant be suprised anymore. Ive developed a taste for eye for an eye. Im gona leave out my emotions best I can and just present the facts. Nothing harassing or illegal. They shouldnt mind. Say theyve not hurt anyone. Yes i am a mad woman lol..anxiety one of my defects. I need to learn to stand up for myself. And i deserve a voice in this. Present the facts. They are pretty unbelievable..but true. Im venting..still hoping a person my see the other side. If they dont though..im gona help them. For my selfish reasons also. It may not be the right thing to do..but damn...you are a master of deception. Too good. Unreal. Well..im gona help you face the facts and give you a chance to make things right. And Im gona feel alot better about your amusement. I learned the hard way...sucks but its effective. Get better. Its already begun. Im oddly void of remorse on this one.
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